Did You Know and Why Did You Put Up With It?

Did You Know?

Did you know about the affair? Why did you put up with it?Faithful spouses often find themselves surrounded by poorly informed people asking them,

  • Did you know?
  • How could you have not known?
  • Did you miss the signs?
  • Why did you put up with it?

There’s a salacious element to the questions of course because infidelity makes great movie and television plots (until you’ve experienced this playing out in your own life, that is). That the questions are loaded with negative judgment though is pretty damn obvious.

There are many who also unequivocally ‘muse’ that an affair would mark the end of their own relationship. They use loaded and judgmental phrases like, “I have more respect for myself than that” or “I’m too <insert trait> for that”, or the backhanded compliment, “You’re nicer than I am, I would have…”.

These questions and veiled tsk tsk’ing are often accompanied by well-meaning advice that you should:

  • Change the locks (this is not universally legal - check with legal counsel in your country/state of residence, and be aware that changing the locks might simply result in a legal break-in).
  • Kick them out (they are as entitled to be in the marital home as you are - in most situations, infidelity is not legal grounds to forcibly remove them from the home).
  • Cut up their clothes etc (destruction of personal property can be prosecuted).

It’s often not until you discover an affair in your relationship that you realize how such popular advice can backfire.

Saying Nothing

So, did you know? Well, many faithful spouses don’t immediately confront their cheater when they discover the affair. Despite the understandable reaction to want to immediately vent their rage, devastation, and upset, many don’t - and that can be wise.

There are good reasons to keep your knowledge of an affair to yourself for a while:

  1. It gives you time to take legal advice to explore your options and plan for different outcomes.
  2. It is not uncommon for cheaters to be otherwise abusive, or at the very least, continue to act against you-waiting can give you time to develop a safe strategy or exit.
  3. Confrontation can hinder your ability to gather evidence and/or financial records for your legal team (affairs often go underground when the cheater is challenged).
  4. You can use the time to quietly grow your own financial cushion.
  5. You can educate yourself about cheaters, reconciliation, and divorce, and build yourself a support network to help you through the mess you’re facing.

Delaying confrontation can be a sensible approach as part of a broader strategy to address the issue from a position of strength.

Knowledge is Not Collusion

Despite the asinine bunkum postulated by the likes of Tammy Nelson, knowledge is neither consent nor collusion.

Tracy Schorn & InfidelityOne of the worst things about being cheated on is others’ wrongheaded notion that somehow you were in on the deal. That you knowingly turned a blind eye. Perhaps you and your cheating spouse had an “arrangement,” wink, wink, nudge, nudge. The unspoken assumption is that you kind of deserve infidelity for being such an oblivious idiot.

Tracy Schorn

Enduring an abusive situation is not consent. Anyone who has witnessed someone suffer an anxiety attack over their partner’s affair can attest to that LACK of consent. They didn’t invite the affair, they didn’t agree to it, they weren’t somehow okay with it. They were not given the power of veto.

Why Did You Put Up With It?

However … and it’s a big ‘however’ …

While knowledge of an affair is not evidence of tacit agreement, a long-term refusal to address the issue is not a reasonable delay in confrontation - it’s a refusal to act. There does come a time where deliberate and enduring inaction (aka Standing) implies consent.

Where you have the power to act (and you do have that power) but choose long-term inaction, you’re choosing the way life is today over the way life could be tomorrow - good or bad. By Standing, you’re choosing to remain engaged in and committed to the relationship, despite the infidelity.

This might not be express agreement and approval but it is tolerance and acceptance despite your disapproval. At some point you chose to remain in the relationship because you did not want to suffer the potential consequences of leaving it.

Dropping the Ball

When you’re drowning in the face of an affair, the last thing you need is the twofold implication that:

  1. If you didn’t know, you dropped the ball (oh, and you must be lying to yourself).
  2. If you did know, you dropped the ball (oh, and you must have somehow ‘agreed’ to the affair).

Pop culture has adopted a slew of ‘explanations’ for the causes of infidelity and they are mostly judgments about the quality of the relationship, failings in the faithful spouse, and popular theory about addiction, mental health, or the power of chemicals such as dopamine. They are all ways of diffusing accountability for the cheater, and implying a role for the faithful spouse that no one should assume. To maintain the relationship faithful spouses often take on the role of ‘fixer,’ or conversely, of someone requiring repair themselves. This might be not be seen consciously but it is often the price paid to mollify a partner in a dysfunctional situation - but no one should ever shoulder the responsibility for another’s unethical choices.

How you handle the affair, and whether you knew or didn’t know is not evidence that you in some way dropped the ball. In fact, there is no game in play and you are not required to play by your cheater’s rules or expectations, or by those of anyone else for that matter.

To the question, “Surely the faithful spouse knew?” I would simply say, “So what if they did?”

It’s time to focus on the fact that it was the cheater who dropped the ball, not their spouse: The focus on the faithful spouse’s response to discovering an affair has no relevance to or bearing on the issue of a cheater’s unethical choices.


“I'm not a teacher, only a fellow traveler of whom you asked the way. I pointed ahead - ahead of myself as well as you.” ~ George Bernard Shaw


  1. I honestly did not know. He had 5 girlfriends over a period of 20 years and there was no difference in our life or in our sex, which was very good, there were no cell phones, no different behavior. He really had it all planed out. I found out 20 year after he stopped cheating and only because he was ill and with all the care I willingly gave him he told me to clear his conscious. If he only kept his secret life to himself our life would have been good forever. Now there will
    always be sadness.

    • Hi Lilly

      Ouch - it’s incredibly difficult to realize that you’ve been lied to and manipulated, especially for such an extended period of time. I am so sorry that you’ve had to deal with all of this. Serial cheaters are very adept at covering their tracks of course, and coupled with artful manipulations and deception some do get away with it for years and years.

      I understand why you might prefer to have never known but this really isn’t a case of ‘what you don’t know can’t hurt you’ - it really can cause damage.

      It takes careful orchestration and the very deliberate management and control over the faithful spouse’s life to conceal so many affairs over so long. Living in what is essentially an altered reality (one created for you by your husband) can mask gradually accelerated/intensified dysfunction and abuse - it was intended to lull you into a false sense of reality. If you haven’t already, I’d urge you to consider finding a professional counselor to talk to about how you might have been affected by this.

      I understand the sadness, but knowledge of the affairs gives you access to salient information about your life that he had deliberately withheld from you. Knowledge allows you to make good choices for yourself, based on truth not someone else’s lies - and that’s empowering.

      Thank you for sharing your story and I do hope that you find a way through the sadness and find the good things in living an informed and authentic reality.

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